in life there are many choices for you to make.
once you made a choice, you have to sacrifice the other options.
you can't have best of both worlds.
this is what i learned the hard way.

bullshits like balancing love life and social life.
i over estimated myself, i thought i would overcome the temptations.
i thought that it was too stable.
i thought that i lost the feelings, and i had move on. but it's not it.

i still had the feelings.
think about it, if there's no love, why is there so much small little details things that i do,
without hoping for return and also just hoping to see a smile.

i am not a person with bright ideas, or rich to get material stuff, or even the time to do something good.
but i always do things from what i can.